“Let your smile change the world, but don’t let the world change your smile.”
I read this the other day and it has stuck with me. It’s been really hard for me lately to make sure that my smile isn’t affected by the world, more specifically, the people who I’ve recently been surrounded by. This past week I’ve been at a conference with my boyfriend for his job and the people who are here with us are just not my cup of tea. I don’t really have anything in common with them. Their conversations consist of cussing, disrespecting people, and behaving immorally.
Luckily, as someone who works from home, I can bring my work with me anywhere and have had the great excuse of having to work during the days to keep me occupied while they’re doing the stuff for the conference and attending classes. That means I only have to interact with these people for a few hours at night. It’s hard being surrounded by the negativity. I get that everyone goes through stuff and that can affect behaviors. I know. I’ve been through my fair share of stuff. I choose to let it make life better and not focus on the bad, the negative.
I guess I think about it like this… it’s that whole saying, “you become like the 5 people you interact most with”. It just has a way of getting to you and eventually taking over. Compare it to weeds. Once one pops up, soon they suck the life out of all the plants and take over. That’s how I feel about these people. They’re weeds sucking the positivity and balanced life out of me. I’ve always been considered a very upbeat person, despite the load of crap that life has thrown at me – between the death of my mom and the death of my twin sister. I’m always smiling and laughing. There’s no point to life if you’re not making the most out of it.
I choose to be positive and surround myself with people who are like that. My boyfriend, just this morning, started playing with my cheeks saying “Don’t they need a massage? You’re always smiling, and, you know, those are muscles too, they need a break” and continued “massaging” my cheeks, which just made me laugh more. I don’t want the world to change my smile, and this week, that has been a huge challenge. I’m glad that I’m here with my boyfriend because at least there is one other person who rejects the negativity and tries to ignore the lack of values these people we’re currently surrounded by choose to live by.
There are just two more nights, one more day, and a plane ride between the struggle to remain strong and being home and washing my hands of the ‘dirty’ that I feel whenever I’m around them. Just smile!